What made me stay and study in my hometown



4th year high school marks your final year in high school. This means you get to have a new life and a new start after graduation. Choosing a college degree could mean a lot to you, what more the school you get to go to. Everyone in my batch were really busy filling up the forms issued by the guidance office from different universities. It made me want to get one as well, but I was waiting for one university, the Xavier University.




College has always been planned out for me already. Actually, my whole life has been planned out already haha! I don’t see any wrong with that though. But it somehow made me realize that everything could happen not the way you wanted it to. Like, I’ve once talked with my mom and dad about college when I was still like 3rd year? Or 4th year. It took me time to convince them in allowing me to go to XU. My father is the hardest to convince, because he wants to still look over me and everything(I know it sounds super strict and I feel babyish HAHAHA, but it’s so worth it).I even still asked my sister to help me out (which she did, and she made them say YES!). The thought of having freedom, living on your own, and having the One-room-has-it-all that we occupied in one of the rooms in the building, like considering it as your kingdom makes me excited. And thinking about it now is just so sweet. But being away for how many days with the people you use to greet every morning, and kiss and saying “good night” at the same time is just not bearable. I’m sure I will miss them. I’ve been always with them wherever they go. But because I really really want to go to XU, I stopped thinking about it and look on the brighter side instead.






While my other batchmates were busy passing forms from DLSU, ADMU, UST, UP (and I can’t remember the rest), my mom kept on telling me to take exams on it for experience. I answered her “What for? It’s not like I’m enrolling there anyway”. I know it sounds passive, but really, the forms are just limited, and I pretty much won’t have a chance of studying there because my mind is set on XU, and I don’t want to be selfish by securing a form for myself( me who won’t even study there) so I gave those slots who really wants it. 

Every 3 days in one week at night, I use to stay at my parents room just for my mom not to feel alone, because my dad goes out to play basketball with his friends(It helps his health actually as well). And this, my friends, is the number one reason why I made the choice of not pursuing my application at XU. I know some of you could say it’s O.A and everything, but the fact that you’re the youngest of the family,and both of your elder brother and sister are married and is now living on their own with their own family, and staying away would leave them two alone, it just doesn’t feel great. My parents won’t be with me forever, why leave them behind on a daily basis? Make the most out of it instead.


My preferred course is offered in two of my preferred schools. I don’t see more reason with studying in other cities than the diploma and pride of graduating in that institution. But honestly speaking, everything in college boils down to one thing. Employment. And surely, I will have a job after graduation. That’s actually an assurance for education students(unless you’re planning on focusing on your review for LET Exams)Maybe my decision was just also practical. But moreover, I have no regrets for staying in Iligan. 


The thought of my parents eating meals alone, going to church by themselves, having them worry is just not worth it for a single diploma. Yes, it may be for my future, but my time for them is much more important. The bonds and the memories I have with them (and more to have) cannot be exchanged with the riches, and possessions I will have. There is really something significant about having time with them. And everything as of now is just perfect.

Xavier University Photo by: www.sunstar.com.ph/cagayan-de-oro/lifestyle/2015/08/27/growing-old-cagayan-de-oro-426992

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